'This Year Is Different': Carrie Bickmore On The Sadness She Can't Shake

The Project host has opened up about the bittersweet milestone of her eldest son Oliver, 11, finishing primary school.

And while the 38-year-old mum of three said she usually can't wait for the school year to come to a close, this year is different.

“I feel a gentle sadness creeping over me that I can’t shake,” Carrie wrote for Stellar.

“It’s the end of an era. The end of primary school for my eldest and I’m not ready.”

Carrie lamented on the fact that Ollie is in a 'sweet spot' when it comes to his age: grown up enough that he can take care of himself but not so independent that he still likes being around his family.

"I have friends with kids in high school, I see what’s ahead – the smells, the retreating, the grunting -- and I’m not sure I’m ready," Carrie added.

Given the milestone parenting moment, Carrie explained she has become a 'stage five clinger' when it comes to her son's events and is cherishing 'those seemingly mundane moments'.

"No wonder parents face a crisis of identity when their kids finish school. What the hell do you do with all that spare time? More time to worry, I guess," she wrote.

It is this moment in time that has made Carrie discover one of the great truths of being a parent.

"I feel like parenthood is a series of activities you try to speed up at the time... but then long for after," Carrie said.

Wishing summer holidays would end so the kids would stop arguing, skipping pages of books to make bedtime go faster, or hoping for a washout at tennis so you don’t need to be a mum taxi for another weekend.

As the countdown is on for Ollie's graduation, Carrie said she needs to continue to remind herself that there are still many parenting first to come.

Ollie -- whom Carrie had with husband Greg Lange, who died of brain cancer in 2010 -- is the media personality's eldest son. Carrie shares four-year-old daughter Evie and 11-month-old daughter Adelaide with her partner Chris Walker.

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