'I Did A Solid Job': Angie Kent Details How She Hid Her Eating Disorder For So Long
Trigger warning: This piece deal with themes relating to eating disorders and may be triggering for some readers.
'The Bachelorette' Angie Kent has always been vocal about the reality of living with an eating disorder, her struggle with bulimia beginning at the age of 14.
Yet in her new book 'If You Don't Laugh You'll Cry', the Australian celebrity has gone into significant detail about her experience and how she managed to hide it from those around her, including friends and family, for so long.
Angie explained the way her bulimia developed as a way of seeking control as a teenager, before the habit steadily became an addiction and was compounded by her use of medication to remedy hormonal acne.
"The only control I had in my life was what I put in my mouth. I could control everything that went into my body and when I lost that control and put something bad in my body, I then had the control to get it out of my body," Angie said.
So I kept throwing up my food.
Angie said the damaging habit became and 'escape' for her and if she hadn't done it, she would be consumed with thoughts about it.
"I liked the feeling of it too -- the release of the food coming out. I was just so addicted," she said.
"Plus, I didn't know any better: I started doing it when I was fourteen, so by the time I was in my early twenties I almost forgot what it was like not to do it."
At the age of 16, Angie began taking Roaccutane, a medication used mostly for the treatment of severe acne. Yet this she said, made her 'a bloody crazy person' and further left her with acne scars as a result of her picking her skin.
"Living with an eating disorder, especially in high school and being able to hide it -- I actually did a pretty solid job of this," she said.
"I think everyone noticed I was getting really skinny but I think they mainly thought it was because I didn't eat much due to my new-found skin obsession."
Angie said no one knew the degree of her eating disorder and how much the obsession with throwing up dictated her life.
Angie's eating disorder subsided when she got into a serious relationship, but on leaving high school and breaking up with her boyfriend, she began to seek control again through 'spewing' up her food.
"It was't even about being skinny anymore. I also got addicted to being skinny and as I mentioned, I was mainly addicted to the control," she said.
Angie said while as an adult she understands her body and mental health more, it's still a flight that she battles everyday, adding that the bulimia brought on a number of health conditions she now has to treat.
"I abused my body for so long that that I gave myself nearly every inflammatory condition one could have. Bingeing and throwing up so much, I believe I gave myself coeliac disease, I gave myself IBS and now I have endometriosis," Angie said.
Angie's focus is to now do what is good for her mind and body, as opposed to wanting to be skinny or in control.
"I know this will always be an addiction of mine, controlling what I do to my body, so I need to be mindful of it and stay on top of it," Angie said, adding that meditation has helped her greatly.
Angie urged anyone suffering with an eating disorder to speak to someone about it immediately and not to feel ashamed.
"I know you feel so ashamed when you have an eating disorder but know that you are never alone. There are others out there. And there is help for everyone," Angie said.
Angie Kent's book 'If You Don't Laugh You'll Cry' is on sale from today and available at all good book stores and online at Booktopia.
If this article raised any issues for you or you need help and support for eating disorders, contact the Butterfly Foundation‘s National Support line and online service on 1800 ED HOPE (1800 33 4673) or visit their website, here.
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