'I Cry Almost Every Day': Abbie Chatfield Opens Up About 'Bachelor' Heartbreak
Despite declaring she "was fine" after being sent home in favour of Chelsie McLeod, 'The Bachelor' runner-up Abbie Chatfield has revealed that she's still heartbroken over Matt Agnew.
We last saw Abbie leaving South Africa after being rejected by Matt, where she insisted that she'd "be over it by this time this airs".
"Yeah, not true!" Abbie told 10 daily over the phone.
Going to meet Matt at the altar, the bubbly 23-year-old was sure she had won the astrophysicist's heart -- only to be told that his heart belonged to another.
"I felt blindsided because we had such incredible dates right up until the final date. I guess I was just really confused and I just kind of wanted an answer as to why," she explained.
Riding in the car after being unceremoniously dumped, Abbie said that she felt "completely numb and in shock" until the reality of the situation hit her.
"Five minutes later I was screaming, just wailing," she said, adding, "I truly felt like I wasn't there and like it wasn't actually happening -- I just remembered looking out the window and thinking, 'This is it'."
Despite the show wrapping up several months ago, Abbie admitted that she's still healing from heartbreak, saying, "I'm still not over it."
"Every time I get sent a photo of me and Matt's date I have a little cry -- or a big cry," she added.
"Watching Wednesday's episode was really, really difficult for me because I'm still not over it. I really thought that I would be by now, but I guess when you watch the whole journey, it brings those feelings back."
As for her thoughts on Chelsie and Matt as a couple, Abbie said, "I love Chelsie, she's one of my closest friends from this experience and I think they're very well suited to each other -- they make a great couple".
And while she hopes to continue her friendship with winner Chelsie outside the 'Bachelor bubble', Abbie admitted she still needs more time to process her feelings.
"Time heals all wounds, so I feel like I'll eventually be able to hang out with them -- I'd love to see Chelsie again. I'm not sure about Matt," she said, adding, "I did love him. That's pretty obvious by me still crying almost every day."
Asked what she would say to Matt, Abbie remained diplomatic.
"I just wish him the best. I just want him to be happy."
After the finale, Abbie posted a heartfelt caption on Instagram writing, "The only way I can describe this moment is complete and utter shock."
"Hearing Matt say 'my heart is with someone else' reminded me that we were filming and that Matt had to make a difficult decision," she continued, "and he did not see in me what I saw in him.
"I felt silly for ever imagining Matt would love me. It was like emotional whiplash."
"I still haven’t fully healed from my relationship with Matt, but I know he and the gorgeous woman he is with are happy, and that’s all that matters."
The Bachelor Australia' Airs on Wednesdays And Thursdays At 7.30pm on 10, 10 play and WIN Network.
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