'My Biggest Enemy Was Probably Myself': Abbey Rose Burns Out In Spice Challenge
In tonight's elimination challenge, Abbey couldn't quite find the spark in the two-part herb and spices cook.
Chatting to 10 daily via phone following her elimination, Abbey reflected on her final week, disappointed that it wasn't her finest.
"Besides the fact I got to meet the lovely Maggie Beer -- one of my inspirations, I think a lot of my love of cooking came from watching her TV shows -- I was so disappointed with myself," Abbey said.
"I wasn't putting up my best food, I wasn't in the right headspace. I think I threw myself, mentally."
During the picnic at Hanging Rock challenge, it was clear things weren't right with Abbey who became flustered as she struggled to make a hummus despite having made it many times before in the past.
Admitting she was incredibly frustrated with herself, Abbey explained she's quite an anxious person -- adding the pressures of the 'MasterChef' kitchen obviously exacerbated that.
"Every day I walked into that kitchen I was absolutely petrified," Abbey admitted. "The only way I could keep myself going was to walk in there and pretend. To tell myself that I can do this, I'm in control and I'm not scared at all."
During Thursday's elimination challenge, Abbey said she knew it would be her last time in the 'MasterChef' kitchen.
"I wasn't myself in that kitchen. It was hard, but I just wasn't myself," she said. "I told myself I have to go in there and know what I have to do, to be switched on from the get-go or I'll crash and burn.
"I knew I wasn't fully switched on."
Still, never giving up, the one thing that continued to push Abbey throughout the competition was proving that she could to the one person that counts the most: herself.
"That was the most important thing to me, so when I could see that crumbling and fraying at the seams... that upset me, I could feel I was going."
Looking back, despite the pressures and the unfortunate battles with chunky hummus, Abbey couldn't believe the experiences she had and the lifelong friendships she made along the way.
"I met Nigella!" Abbey gushed, "She's another person that really shaped me as a cook growing up. Watching her sneak to the fridge in the middle of the night, all those naughty things, that's what I'm all about with cooking.
"I didn't think it could get much better and then Rick Sten walked through the door! I still can't believe it. I see him on TV every other day and... I cooked for that guy!"
Since her time in the 'MasterChef' kitchen Abbey has been doing work experience in two of her favourite places, Barr Rizzo and Capriccio, where she's been learning the ins and outs of working in a professional kitchen. She's also been absorbing as much as she can on how to successfully run her own café.
"I'm getting married at the end of the year, so that's the priority," Abbey said before assuring us, "The café's going to happen. It's not a matter of if, it's a matter of when."