'I'm So Mad': Vanessa Bryant On 'Nightmare' Struggle Over Kobe And Gianna's Deaths
Vanessa Bryant is continuing to pay tribute to her late husband Kobe and 13-year-old daughter Gianna and has opened up about her own personal struggle since their deaths.
In an emotional Instagram post, the wife of the NBA legend revealed that she still "refuses to accept" the pair's deaths, and elaborated on her struggle with survivor's guilt.
Saying that while she had initially been “reluctant” to open up about her feelings in such a public space, she felt that speaking out may help others who have suffered the loss of a loved one.
“My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone,” the 37-year-old mother of four wrote.
“I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong.”
“Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad,” she continued. “She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters.”
Alongside the caption was a video showing basketball highlights from Gianna, a rising star at Mamba Sports Academy, which Kobe had coached.
“[I’m] mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri,” she wrote of her surviving children.
"I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process.”
“I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this,” she added. “God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.”
Vanessa previously revealed that a memorial service for Kobe and Gianna Bryant will take place at 10am at the Staples Centre in Los Angeles on February 24, 2020 -- or 2/24/20 -- the significance of this particular date being that Gianna, who hoped to play for the WNBA someday, wore a number 2 jersey, while Kobe Bryant wore number 24, and 20 being the number of years Vanessa and Kobe had been together.
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