YouTuber NikkieTutorials Comes Out As Trans In Emotional Video
Popular Youtube star Nikkie De Jager -- known best as NikkieTutorials -- has opened up to her 12 million subscribers about being a transgender woman in a raw 17-minute video.
The Dutch makeup guru revealed the news for the first time in a video titled 'I'm Coming Out'.
In the clip, she explained that she'd hoped to tell fans about her transition on her own terms, but due to threats of blackmail "that chance has been taken away".
"Filming this video is scary, but it's so liberating and freeing," she said in the clip, adding: "I've been wanting to share this side of myself to all of you for so long but I could never figure out the timing."
"I want to start the year off with the truth. I want to start the year off by finally revealing a part of my life that has made me who I am. I want to talk about a part of myself that makes me, me," she said.
"I can't believe I'm saying this today to all of you for the entire world to see, but damn, it feels good to finally do it. It is time to let go and be truly free. When I was younger, I was born in the wrong body, which means that I am transgender."
She added, “I am NikkieTutorials. And I am Nikkie, and I am me. We don’t need labels. If we are going to put a label on it, yes I am transgender. But at the end of the day, I am me.”
She went on to thank her mother for her constant support, as well as delve into her childhood experience in growing up in the wrong body, revealing she began growing her hair out and telling her classmates she was a girl at age six.
"Some kids got it, and other kids in my class did not, which is fine," de Jager said. "But I will always be so thankful for all the teachers at that school who supported my journey and supported me."
She said by 14 she had begun using hormones and used "growth stoppers" that prevented her from becoming tall.
She fully transitioned by age 19, after she started making YouTube videos. While she insisted that she did eventually hope to tell fans, she wanted her channel -- which focuses on all kinds of makeup looks -- to focus on her art.
"I wanted the art to do the speaking for me," she said. "From today on, you get me," she added, explaining she is determined to be completely open and honest to her subscribers from now on.
"I am free, and today I get to be me," she said.
She later flipped off the blackmailer in question, saying, "So for those who tried to blackmail me and thought they could really mess up my life with that, this one's for you -- I hope you can sit nice on it."
Following the video, which at the time of writing already has 455,000 views, De Jager received a flood of support from fans, celebs, and fellow YouTubers, with singer Marina Jade tweeting, "I’m in tears @NikkieTutorials. Thanks for being such an inspiration, you are so powerful❤️"
Another fan praised the star while condemning the unknown person who threatened to blackmail her, saying, "literally blackmailing someone to come out is the ugliest and worst thing in the world. nothing is scarier than coming out, especially as a trans woman. I just gotta say I love and respect Nikkie so much and am so proud of her! "
You go, girl!